Monday, January 3, 2011

Want to see inside my brain?

I figured this picture is probably the most expensive picture ever taken of me so I'd better post it! That is my brain people! A picture of my brain! Raise your hand if you have a picture of your brain. I've never had a picture of my brain.

I have a C2 fracture and it's pretty evident where the fracture is. That is a topside view. (That black whole in the middle is my esophagus. Now that you've seen my esophagus, I'm pretty sure that makes us best friends.)

Horrible picture, but this is me at home. I think we've all adjusted to our new temporary life with the halo. I hate this halo, I'm not gonna lie but I'm thankful for life. I'm glad to be home with my family. I'm trying hard to not complain, there are so many things I miss.
I miss not being able to pick up the girls and squeeze them.
I miss not being able to look up at my husband and give him a kiss.
I miss snuggling in bed or on the couch.
I miss not being able to put things where they belong.
I miss not being able to do laundry and put it away where I want it.
I miss showers.
I miss real clothes.
I miss brushing my hair.
I miss being able to get up and do the things that I want.
I miss getting a full nights sleep.

I know that I will be able to all these things again. I know others live their whole lives not being able to do these things for themselves. I just miss them and will appreciate them more when I get them back.

Here are a few pictures of the car. It's actually hard for me to look at these. Even though we survived and where protected, the horror of that moment is relived. The two little girls where sitting in the middle, where the car looks almost untouched. Except for the windows. Amazing.

You know another thing that hits me when I look at these pictures? A car is just a car. It can be destroyed in a minute. Things we hold onto in life are not as important as we think they are.

The driver's side.

The driver's side again. It's been a month since the accident and the anxiety and fear gets better. I hope that by seeing these pictures people will maybe drive a little more carefully. Even though outside forces can cause an accident, I think we should take more time on the road. Be patient, be kind to other drivers.

This was my first brace. The chin part caused a pressure sore. A pressure sore is kind of like a bed sore. I have a picture but it's really to gross to show. It looked like a hole in my chin and was purple and black. Blech!

Because of the pressure sore, they had to put me in a halo. I still don't know how long I have to wear this. Only time will tell. In the meantime, I'm taking vitamins to try to heal this baby up as fast as possible. When you think about it, it really is cool that in time your bones heal themselves.


Threeblacklabs said...

and you are still a beauty even with a halo on. i am so jealous!

Jerry and Lauren said...

Oh Michele. Looking at those pictures, it's a miracle you weren't hurt worse. I know the Mops moms will agree with me that you are truly a blessing to us and we praise God that you are here and healing. We continue to pray for you and your family.

SillyHille said...

Those pics are hard for ME to look at and I wasn't involved...
I'm still very thankful every day that you're doing better. I have a 30 mile commute to work and every single day I get on the interstate I think about you! It's a miracle, and I think, proof that God has big plans for your future!

Anonymous said...

Hi there, Sorry to hear about your accident! Glad to see you are moving around and OK for the most part. I saw your blog while browsing for halo related information. I dont know if you use facebook at all but if you dont you should. There are a few groups out there that can probably help you out. I would also Love to help you out with anything or get you in touch with someone else that may be able to help you out. I have MANY friends that have or are in the halo. I have been trying to get people together to talk and help out for a while now. my name on facebook is halobracehelp or halo helper depending on how you type it in. Get well and heal fast!