Have you ever had one of those weeks? I think every mom, even if you have one, two or ten kids, has had one of those weeks. Even if you are that mom who actually gets dressed in real clothes and puts on make-up everyday, you have had one of those days. I don't like to be negative, because it's bothers me when people say, "Well maybe you should of thought about that BEFORE you had four kids so close in age." I can handle this and I am a good mother, but sometimes it's just hard. This job is really hard.
I think the worst part of all this, is the guilt. The guilt I feel for admitting that sometimes I don't have it all together. That sometimes, maybe God made a mistake for gifting me with my children. That maybe my almost losing it with them, makes me the worst mother out there. I then find comfort in knowing that just about every mom feels this way at some point. I am not the only one!
Here's what I try to do, to keep my sanity:
1. Take a very, very long and deep breath
2. Have some thing to look forward too, after they go to bed (Like going to Target by myself, or making a fun dessert for Josh and I, or watching a movie I want to watch.)
3. Find an outlet, some thing that makes me feel like me again (My love for photography is really great therapy.)
4. Take some time for me (The more kids I have the more I realize that I need time to myself. I wish I had taken more time for myself when I had only one or two kids. Back when I thought I didn't need it. )
5. I joined MOPS (Your kids get to sing songs and do crafts with some one else, while you visit with other really cool and stressed out moms. We eat and talk and it's a wonderful break almost every other week. I have to say that the moms at my table are the coolest, kindest, craziest moms and I would have never of met them if I hadn't of joined MOPS.)
6. I try to take a moment to put things in perspective (Like being thankful that my kids are healthy. Being thankful that I don't have 10 kids.)
7. Remember that my kids are not always going to be small (I know I'm gonna miss seeing them with their pacifiers and pigtails. I'm gonna miss hearing "I love you" from Savanna 10 times a day. I'm gonna miss having a say in what they wear. Let's not flash forward to when they are teenagers, I just might lose it. )
8. Take comfort in knowing that God knows my heart and has a very unique plan for my children and our family.
P.S. I'm sorry to sound so crazy, but I really feel better now!